Baby appointment

So I called to make my first prenatal appointment today. This was a hard thing for me to do. Not because I don't want to have the appointment but unfortunately it will not be with my midwife. Because of our financial situation we have had to be on Medicaid, which has been a blessing for us. And that is what has paid for our last 2 pregnancy's and births .... this time however it will be of no use to us because the Birth Center is no longer able to accept Medicaid. So, we start this process over... finding a new provider that will accept Medicaid. This is a scary thing for me. I am so comfortable with my midwife and already know what to expect with her and her amazing staff and know that I and my baby would be in excellent hands. I don't know how I will do this again. I have heard horror stories of bad midwifery from some and I don't want to be in a hospital hooked up to machines being offered drugs by people who are very "clinical". I don't want to be just another pregnant patient. So needless to say I am scared.... I'm afraid of the unknown......

Surprise!!!

So, yeah.... we are having a baby again! It really is hard to believe. Obviously by this I mean we were not trying to have another baby yet, but I guess someone else had other plans for us. Don't get me wrong we aren't unhappy with this..... just taken aback.

I'm almost 12 weeks pregnant and I'm happy to report that I am almost done with my first trimester! I have only thrown up once but can't shake this sickening feeling in my stomach that I have daily. I do have some decent days, but today is not one of those days.

Here's something fun... I'm not the only one in my family that is expecting! I have 2 sister-in-laws that are pregnant as well! One is due in May and the other in July. My due date is June 21st which means more likely than not I'll have this baby around the 10th! Here's something even more fun though.... My sister Kimberly who has been trying to get pregnant for awhile is also going to have a baby... and her due date...... JUNE 10th!!! I think that that is pretty cool. And my sister will most likely have her baby end of May.

Babies, babies, babies.

So, my little girl Thalia just turned 1! She is getting so big. Zion and Thalia are such good friends it's fun to watch them play together. Some of Thalia's words that she says frequently are: this and that. Generally she uses "this and that" to refer to my boobs when she wants to nurse. She is a funny girl. This little girl already loves talking on the phone and really knows how to throw a fit! She is trying very hard to learn to feed herself with a fork and spoon... and refuses to let us help her. I'm not sure if she will be left handed or right yet because she switches hands often... Zion always used his right hand and we never questioned which way he'd go.

Zion is becoming more grown up all the time. His sentences are awesome and he make Nate and I crack up all the time with the crazy things that come out of his mouth. Zion has really been into fort making lately, and will raid my linens daily to find the fixings for perfect fort making. I gotta say he has become so creative. It's funny to me that he'll make a fort and then sit inside and pretend to watch movies. When it comes to food I gotta love my son even more. Some of the things that he loves to eat most... his fruit and vegetables! One night we had pizza and a salad, and all Zion wanted to eat was salad... in fact he didn't even touch his pizza! On another night we had hot wings with carrots and celery (of course) and all he wanted, yet again, was carrots and celery! I love my kid...

Nate, bless his heart is working so hard to support us financially. He works 2 part time jobs and finds in the end we still can't seem to get ahead. It is rare that he actually gets a real day off. I know he misses his kids and hates it that he can't spend more quality time with them. And I know it hurts him even more when Zion asks him not to go.

Christmas will be tight for sure this year but we are looking at the positives... No tree... no mess. And we decided that the kids would love to spend Christmas morning at Grandma and Grandpas house... they have a tree and it would just be more special. We talked with Zion and he has agreed that we will go through all the toys we have and pick some to donate to those who could use them more then us. We decided this will be one of our own family traditions that we will do each and every year.

My Grandma died this last month. She was the last of my grandparents. She had been living with my parents for the past 6 years or so, suffering from Alzheimer and Dementia. My mother and sister have been caring for her around the clock for far too long, a hard thing to do. My parents took her back to California to be buried next to my grandfather. She will be missed. I don't know if my mother and sister know what to do with themselves now that she is gone though their tasks at home never end. I hope my sister decides that she can now further her education. and I hope my mom will at least take a nap.

Well.... I think that is all for now. I will try to be better at this blogging thing. P.S. I did have to go without internet for quite awhile, so it really wasn't me just slacking.